Monday, October 15, 2007'♥
When im on a bus,
i always seem to look out of the window,
and i saw everything wide and far,
stretched out in front of me.
I passedby some scenery,
and thought of all the good times,
old friends,
familliar roads,
places and dont exist anymore,
and things that never seem to end.
Windows take you away,
to other places beyond what you can see.
When i look out a window,
i dont see things i know,
just things to be discovered.
I look out of a window...
a transparent window.
luke hugged cali@
5:08 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007'♥
i had a dream last night. I dreamt that i lost cali to other guys. it wasn't a really pleasant dream because i awoke and i even prayed for me to change and be worthy enough for her.
i read from somewhere that a reason why you dream is because your brain is archiving all most of your thoughts. I didnt know you could archive fear as well. And i learnt, today, in church that word really do make a difference in the lives.
I knew that long ago. However, i didn't know that it could be that important.
Dear Lord,
As i mature, the more fears i have. i pray that you'll shelter me from the rain and help me shelter others who are in need by my words.
I pray that Cali and i will stay strong. I pray that you help me trust her even more as the day goes by. I pray that i can trust her as much as i trust you. I am scared that i will lose her. I am scared. Father, i know fear is not of you. Therefore Lord, i pray that you will give me the courage. The courage to do the right things. The courage to look fear in the eyes. The courage that comes from you. The courage...
Lord, live in me. I am tired of sin. I am tired of sinning. I am tired of trying to sin.
Lord, hear my prayer.
All these i pray in Jesus' name.
Amen.
luke hugged cali@
8:24 PM
'♥
It's ironic. It seems like when your blog isn't public, you tend to write more. It really is. I mean, when i had a public blog, i had all inds of people reading it and i often felt like i had and insurmountable task of writing and choosing a topic to write on. I guess when the pressure is subtracted, inspiration breeds.
I love Cali alot. She has guy classmates, and i dont blame her for making friends with them. I mean, i really cant control her in that area. I don't really like her to wear skirts because i've noticed the number of guys looking at her. Then again, i'd like her to be happy. So i guess, i'll be happy - and i am.
I know that there are things that are beyond my control. I realise that i should just let these things go and just be myself. Be who i really am.
I just want to love her with all the love i can offer.
luke hugged cali@
12:09 AM
Friday, October 12, 2007'♥
It's been a long time since i've blogged about someting emotional. But i kinda felt that it's a good feeling. Right now i have got calister, the best wife in the world, by my side and that's all the company i need.
But God, there are many things that i don't know but i can certainly see that the world is getting more corrupted than before. When i think of the word "corrupt" it gives me a sense of brokenness and it really makes me wonder why things have to be like that.
I am scared Lord, of losing things that are really dear to me. I know however everything in this world is not permanent. I will lose the things that are dearest to me. So will all of my friends and family experience the same situation.
I thank you Lord, for everything that you've done in my life. Mummy, Calister, my friends and... You.
I pray this is Jesus' name,
Amen
luke hugged cali@
10:05 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007'♥
well, so much for finale.
i'm back to writing. though it's in secret this time. i guess no one would really notice, for a long long time. but then again. there's this thrill =)
i know im not much of a story writer, but then again there are things that i prefer to say it out than to keep it hidden in me. at least i can say things in a poetic form. for once, and me many other times.
for myself, and for the other people who happen to chance upon this. hopefully someone, perhaps no one. maybe, or maybe not.
sometimes im thinking if i'll lose it all in studies. i've got a really great girl beside me however, who will walk the distance with me.
one mile,
or maybe two.
i out our memories into a file,
so i'll have to read it, and maybe you.
luke hugged cali@
11:05 PM
